Crash

You realize how ridiculous I'm being?
I haven't seen you in over a year,
But I'm terrified that you're really hurt
You broke my heart,
And here I am,
Hoping desperately that yours is OK
I looked around,
There were clues,
But no straight answers
And I'm scared that you're injured
And I don't want you to be
So please call me,
Or text me or send me a message,
Cause while I was smoking a cigarette,
Drinking a beer and passing the joint to my friend,
You were lying somewhere,
Hurt and alone,
And I feel guilty,
No matter how much you hurt me,
I still feel guilty

Proud

Will you ever be proud of me?
I know you have nothing to be proud of,
I'm sorry for that
You can't even be proud of my sports,
I can't swim anymore, I've let my grades slip too much,
You can't be proud of my writing,
You can't be proud of me,
Because that is all I am
And if that is all I am,
Then you have nothing to be proud of,
And for that,
I am sorry

Mountain of my Design

Where do I go from here?
My life is hanging on an unbalanced string,
My world is teetering on the edge of nothing.
You are my temporary relief,
But all I get from you is confusing beliefs.
Twisted memories of how things should be,
Beauties staring into mirrors,
And reflected back as beasts.
I'm stuck in the middle,
The raper of innocence,
The destroyer of good,
And I'm struggling to climb,
This mountain of my own design.

Inside of Me

Our breaths, erratic and uneven,
Our bodies, straining and sweaty,
Glistening in the soft glow of the moon,
The pain, almost unbearable, breaking into waves of pleasure

The life in our souls when our eyes met,
Connecting with such ferocious love,
The shy glances and faint touches
The soft butterfly wings of your lips

The tears ran down my face,
And even though I hurt,
I didn’t stop
Because all I wanted, was you

To feel you,
To connect with you,
To love you,
To have you inside of me

That is all I wanted. That is what I got.

Firefly

Firefly, shine me a path so bright,
Let me see the light,
In this dark, dark night

Let me feel your hands on me,
Running up and down,
Let me feel oh so free

Take me away with those wings,
And let me feel the soft breeze,
Gentle, gentle, like your lips

Slowly teach me all those ways,
To feel and make feel,
Teach me how to make love to you tonight

I’m ready to take in that light,
I want to be as close to you as possible tonight,
My dear firefly.