Crash

You realize how ridiculous I'm being?
I haven't seen you in over a year,
But I'm terrified that you're really hurt
You broke my heart,
And here I am,
Hoping desperately that yours is OK
I looked around,
There were clues,
But no straight answers
And I'm scared that you're injured
And I don't want you to be
So please call me,
Or text me or send me a message,
Cause while I was smoking a cigarette,
Drinking a beer and passing the joint to my friend,
You were lying somewhere,
Hurt and alone,
And I feel guilty,
No matter how much you hurt me,
I still feel guilty