Do You Understand Now?

I'm so burned out,
I just want to lay down and forget the world,
But very time I close my eyes,
You're there.

You think I like what I did to myself?
Do you think I enjoyed it?
Because I did

I loved the rush I would get,
The tingle and bitterness,
As my mind tries to decide if it hurts or not

But the feeling I get with you,
Is worth so much more,
Than those little highs

The feeling I get with you,
My darling firefly,
Is a thousand times better

It's not just a temporary release with you,
It's a permanent tingle,
Rushing through my entire body in rivers of love

I can't imagine being without you,
But I can imagine being without that knife
So if this is what I have to do, I will

Forget those rushes,
Forget the pain and punishment,
I just want you,

Because in all the many things in this world,
The only thing I truly love,
Is you

Goodbye

Goodbye my dark passenger,
You have guided me through so much,
Led me down deep paths of evil,
And brought me back to touch,
The hearts of people around me,
Living inside life,
Knowing they won't listen,
But screaming out inside.
Where will this place lead me,
I'm lost without you,
Even if I come back,
I won't be the same.

Maybe it's for the better,
I'm better off without,
The awful things you make me do.
And If I start again,
I know that's where you'll be,
Waiting to welcome me back,
Into your fiery arms of pain