Do You Understand Now?

I'm so burned out,
I just want to lay down and forget the world,
But very time I close my eyes,
You're there.

You think I like what I did to myself?
Do you think I enjoyed it?
Because I did

I loved the rush I would get,
The tingle and bitterness,
As my mind tries to decide if it hurts or not

But the feeling I get with you,
Is worth so much more,
Than those little highs

The feeling I get with you,
My darling firefly,
Is a thousand times better

It's not just a temporary release with you,
It's a permanent tingle,
Rushing through my entire body in rivers of love

I can't imagine being without you,
But I can imagine being without that knife
So if this is what I have to do, I will

Forget those rushes,
Forget the pain and punishment,
I just want you,

Because in all the many things in this world,
The only thing I truly love,
Is you