Ocean

You are the sea in which I'm drowning
Sinking, sinking trying to swim
But your warmth is pulling me
Down, down into the depths
Of your lovingly cruel heart

Where do I belong
In this ocean of emotion?
Why am I swimming,
Through my own life?

Guardian Angel

You are my savior,
The light that fills me,
When the dark creeps in
The magic that touches me,
When the witch tries to steal me

Your smile,
Your voice,
Your lips,
Your hands
They all help keep away the pain

You keep my mind at rest,
On these cold nights
And fill me with love,
On these days filled with hate
You are the best thing that has ever happened to me

The scars that form webs,
Along my body,
Would be more numerous,
Had you not come along,
And my lungs would be smoke filled

My eyes would be a constant basin,
Home to many tears,
And the bed covers would be stained black
My pain running in streams for the entire world to see,
Laughing demons, smiling at my hurt

Quite simply,
You have saved me,
From the ashes of what was left of me,
You bore a whole new me
You have created a perfect image of what I always wanted to be

Do You Understand Now?

I'm so burned out,
I just want to lay down and forget the world,
But very time I close my eyes,
You're there.

You think I like what I did to myself?
Do you think I enjoyed it?
Because I did

I loved the rush I would get,
The tingle and bitterness,
As my mind tries to decide if it hurts or not

But the feeling I get with you,
Is worth so much more,
Than those little highs

The feeling I get with you,
My darling firefly,
Is a thousand times better

It's not just a temporary release with you,
It's a permanent tingle,
Rushing through my entire body in rivers of love

I can't imagine being without you,
But I can imagine being without that knife
So if this is what I have to do, I will

Forget those rushes,
Forget the pain and punishment,
I just want you,

Because in all the many things in this world,
The only thing I truly love,
Is you

Goodbye

Goodbye my dark passenger,
You have guided me through so much,
Led me down deep paths of evil,
And brought me back to touch,
The hearts of people around me,
Living inside life,
Knowing they won't listen,
But screaming out inside.
Where will this place lead me,
I'm lost without you,
Even if I come back,
I won't be the same.

Maybe it's for the better,
I'm better off without,
The awful things you make me do.
And If I start again,
I know that's where you'll be,
Waiting to welcome me back,
Into your fiery arms of pain

Tired

My eyes are heavy,
And my heart is full,
And my bed is soft and warm
But I can't sleep.
If it weren't for my uncertain future,
I would be so endlessly happy
But they keep bringing it up
Until that seems to be the only thing that matters anymore.
Do they even care that for the first time in years,
I'm truly, honestly happy?
No
They focus on the F
That stupid letter has ruined my life one time too many.
I can't deal with this anymore.

It's
Driving
Me
Insane
And
I'm
Losing
Myself

Please, don't let me disappear

Crash

You realize how ridiculous I'm being?
I haven't seen you in over a year,
But I'm terrified that you're really hurt
You broke my heart,
And here I am,
Hoping desperately that yours is OK
I looked around,
There were clues,
But no straight answers
And I'm scared that you're injured
And I don't want you to be
So please call me,
Or text me or send me a message,
Cause while I was smoking a cigarette,
Drinking a beer and passing the joint to my friend,
You were lying somewhere,
Hurt and alone,
And I feel guilty,
No matter how much you hurt me,
I still feel guilty

Proud

Will you ever be proud of me?
I know you have nothing to be proud of,
I'm sorry for that
You can't even be proud of my sports,
I can't swim anymore, I've let my grades slip too much,
You can't be proud of my writing,
You can't be proud of me,
Because that is all I am
And if that is all I am,
Then you have nothing to be proud of,
And for that,
I am sorry