Birthday

Though I may be leaving,
Far, far away,
I won’t forget you

Though the days may pass,
And the hours may fade,
I will not forget you

Though you may not know it now,
You have saved me, mind body and soul,
And I shall not forget you

So here I am,
In these seconds and these minutes,
Of this hour of the day,

Just for you,
I am here at this special moment,
The wish you a happy birthday.

Despair

Despair is the worst,
You are sinking into the sludging mud,
Struggling to catch your breath,
Trying to force your way to the surface
But you can't go anywhere but down

You stop going anywhere,
You stop thinking,
All you can do is think terrible things,
The world seems like an awful, cruel place,
And taking each breath, filling your lungs, hurts

You wonder why people stop trying?
It's because they feel like they have nothing to try for.
It's beacuse they are giving up
Never give up
Even if all thats left is hurt

Can't Sleep

I can't sleep tonight,
Because in my head,
It's finally all laid out,
And I can't sleep,
Knowing what I have to plan for

Outfit,
Hair,
Walking pattern,
Waking up,
Classes,
People,
Lunch,
Pick up,
Everything

In my head, it's all so finalized,
There is no more convincing,
There are no more decisions,
I am leaving
And all I ask for,
Is not to be forgotten

Tonight, I cannot sleep,
Because even after I have planned every little moment,
I can't plan to be remembered,
And that scares me more than anything

Irony

We are all alone in this world,
No one listens,
No one cares,
Don't feel special 'cause you think you're the only one,
Who feels like this
And here's the ironic truth,
We could all understand eachother perfectly,
If someone just cared enough to listen,
To anyone other than themselves.

Falling Down

My world is falling down, falling down, falling down,
My world is falling down and I can't stop it
How did it come to this, come to this, come to this,
How did it come to this, I need help
I feel like no one's noticing, noticing, noticing,
I feel like no one's noticing and I'm all alone

I'm So Sorry

Seeing that gold chain,
Dangling from your soft hand,
It made me want to cry

I feel terrible for what I did,
Looking back,
I have no idea why I even did it.

I feel jealous that I gave up so easily,
All the wonderful things you offered,
And I turned my head away

I wish I could explain why I did it,
I wish I could tell you it was the depression,
That disease lying in wait that I didn't even know I had

I wish I could tell you how sorry I am,
But telling you now,
Would only hurt you more.

I wish you could read this,
But I can't risk actually giving it to you,
And hearing the pain in your voice.

So go, rare treasure,
Be happy with someone who is able to appreciate you,
Something I couldn't do till now.