I'm So Sorry

Seeing that gold chain,
Dangling from your soft hand,
It made me want to cry

I feel terrible for what I did,
Looking back,
I have no idea why I even did it.

I feel jealous that I gave up so easily,
All the wonderful things you offered,
And I turned my head away

I wish I could explain why I did it,
I wish I could tell you it was the depression,
That disease lying in wait that I didn't even know I had

I wish I could tell you how sorry I am,
But telling you now,
Would only hurt you more.

I wish you could read this,
But I can't risk actually giving it to you,
And hearing the pain in your voice.

So go, rare treasure,
Be happy with someone who is able to appreciate you,
Something I couldn't do till now.